it's better to be hated for wot u are than to be loved for wot u arent!!

and i really don't care if anyone (or everyone) hates me...i dont care abt anything anymore

:(

this was there in my class 7 moral science book, strangely enough I still remember it! maybe because so many times, ever since, have felt like this & hence was reminded of it
"no one loves me, no one cares
i'm going to the garden to eat some worms
big, fat, wriggly worms
small, thin, squiggly worms
i'm going to the garden to eat some worms"

i dont want to feel lk this but cant help if this keeps coming back..y cant i just care a shade less about everything
...came across this:
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

loved it ..its strange how some feelings which are felt by me are also experienced by so many people..given my particular "low" state of mind, it gave a peculiar pleasure to go thru other ppl's confessions (some of them were even so eerily similar to mine!!)..i think i need to visit a psychiatrist

..yet another day of failure..yet again, trying to clutch on to that undying hope that tomorrow might be better..

i feel lost & exhausted