yet another futile attempt...

dunno wot has happened..am not being able to access my blog for quite a few days now (even now they arent letting me view it, though they are okay with me writing a new post!weird!)

..anyway, posting after quite a long time, yeah! i had been busy but then, i wouldn't pass the buck by just that excuse..actually didnt quite feel like writing..temperamental me! whatever..
yesterday morning found a baby pigeon lying severly injured in our staircase..heard that two cats literally tried tearing it apart..it was badly injured..i have dealt with cats & dogs before, so am quite at ease when it comes to handling them but this was a little different..anyway, with the help of the granny next next door, managed to put it in a basket & then took it to the nearest animal clinic..
they said one of it's wings had been broken & the nearby region was wounded badly but above all the poor creature was in tremendous shock.. they performed some dressing & asked me to feed it & give the medicines..i brought it back & made a bed for it..after 10 minutes of contemplation, i gingerly picked it up & put it there..the whole day was spent thinking how i can keep it, (as those people had said it might never be able to fly again), as i have so many cats at home, maybe i could put it inside some cage (though i didnt like dat idea much!)..anyway i thought God wanted me to be friends with birds too, so it might have been his way of offering me a gift!
..was proved wrong this morning when i found that the little baby had passed away...
i just dont understand what's the point of all this??? as in, y do i have to be exposed to such experiences over & over & over again, where i would come across a severely sick creature & try my best to cure it & see it die????? once, a poor puppy died on my lap jus 5 minutes before i reached the hospital...y?y?y?
am i wrong in loving them that i would be punished in this way so many times?if God really wants me to take care of them then y on earth cant they live & grow up hale & hearty??wot have i done to deserve all this??

..hope i had an answer...

resurgence

once upon a time i had a blog, then due to some reason it got deleted..then i didn't know how to come back-" stultified" that's what my head has become, i believed. But i cant express the joy which i feel on this rainy night at precisely 2.30 am..the joy one feels to return to someplace he truly cherished being..gosh!i never knew i loved to write so much!maybe, i would write a book someday :)..but who will read all this rubbish?as an afterthought, does that really matter?to use a cliche " does the bird in the forest sing to gain praises"?.. every word i' m typing now is stirring up some strange emotion within me, am feeling overjoyed as i realize how much i love pouring out my heart through words!!
my life at present is similar to that quiet afternoon lake..not much of turbulence. During this span of time, I have left my job but then again am not at all depressed about that!i realized the fact that it's better to pursue your heart's desires sometimes..it might not fetch you money but the happiness it gives sometimes does wonders to your inner development. I am supposed to be studying really hard as that was the reason (read excuse) to quit. Am not doing justice to the purpose entirely, but hope to start off soon but then seriously i don't miss an iota of that job which i hated doing..'liberation' is a wonderful thing after all!!!
The name i chose was something which occurred to me while i was tossing in bed (due to lack of sleep) sometimes back. The white light passing through the prism gets refracted to seven colors..that's the purpose of this blog precisely!It'd bring out the multiple "me's"..the "me" which is ur 'average joe', the "me" which is dark & mean, the activist "me", the "me" which nurtures those starry eyed dreams..and many more which we are yet to discover :)!

P.S. thanks to you for pushing me to restart!